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06 August 2009 @ 01:53 pm
some things.  
I think my main problems at present are totally physical in nature. I am far too sleep deprived and my life is essentially devoid of exercise. This makes me lazy and irritable, and prone to finding excuses not to do important things.

I just couldn't turn my brain off last night and ended up reading through 7 or so volumes of Trigun (finally finished it), an extremely long debate about agnosticism vs. atheism (on The1585), the Ebonmuse blog and the Magic website, among other things. Total information addiction. I need to find a way to fix this.

I had an energy drink today (after not sleeping at all last night) and felt like a god for about an hour and a half. I could think again! The difference really is incredible between me with energy and me without energy.

Even besides all that, the way I've been living lately is really terrible for my body. I need to take care of the damn thing until I can implant my consciousness into a distributed network of nanobots or whatever.

Anyway, in my energized state, I started thinking about something Rinku posted about a long, long time ago. It was the idea of music as an effective form of mind control. I think this is a pretty interesting idea. If you think about it, the purpose of music is essentially to create emotion in the listener- it simulates emotion. This is why music is so important in movies and such- you aren't actually as sad as the characters, or as pumped up, or whatever, but the music helps you feel that way.

So music is like simulated or artificial emotion. Strangely (or maybe not) I find I have stronger emotional responses to certain songs than to most events that actually happen in my life. As a result I have a way better memory for music than I do for actual events.

Is that a bad thing? It makes me think of Neuromancer, and the question of whether an emotion is diminished somehow by being caused "artificially." What even counts as a valid cause for an emotion? Does it matter if a feeling is caused by seeing the face of someone you love as opposed to some sort of weird drug or something? Interesting to think about.

Still haven't talked to my parents about changing schools this year... there never seems to be a good time to bring it up, especially with my mom's old friend staying here for the whole week. I only have a week or so left to make the change, and I haven't done enough research about what it takes to get a student loan and how to register for university courses.

I'm not too worried about not getting into some of the courses I want, since I want to take a bunch of stuff. At the same time I kind of wonder if I'm not giving Media a fair chance. I guess I just don't want to commit too early without trying everything out. I'm still ignorant about a heck of a lot of things.

Frustration.

It seems whenever I'm getting bogged down with my bass playing, it has something to do with the tone controls. I've been playing with the low frequencies boosted a lot, and it made everything not on the E string sound wussy and terrible. I don't know why it took me so long to figure out how to fix it.

I originally had it this way because turning the treble down disguises my sloppy playing a bit. I'm better than I was back then though, so I don't really need to do that anymore.

Can't mention music with Porcupine Tree, can I? There's a track from the new album online now. Like most PTree songs, this one keeps getting better each time I listen to it. Can't wait for the new album. http://porcupinetree.bandcamp.com/track/time-flies-edit

There's been a bunch of things I was meaning to review and talk about, but I don't really feel like it now, so just trust me when I say these things are good:

The band Rishloo;
The new Mars Volta Album, Octahedron;
Pattern Recognition by William Gibson;
House of Suns by Alistair Reynolds;
The Trigun Manga (although I have some quibbles with this one.);
a bunch of other stuff I've forgotten because I haven't updated this thing in like, a year.

I think my writing is even worse than usually. I'm really rambly today. Probably has something to do with me not writing anything lately.
 
 
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A: arashi!prettyninoclipsie on August 7th, 2009 03:47 am (UTC)
*pats head* Rather ramble than not write at all the way I see it.

I know what you mean about the music thing. Music is a very emotional thing all together, and it gets worse if you start associating certain songs to certain emotions and situations. I'm like that in a way, where I get really into things I am watching and reading, and I react strongly to that, but when something in real life happens, I show very little reaction, and am never really surprised. *sigh*

My arm was spasming just now and making a finger twitch. Cool.

Going to university? Eh? I'm so out of the loop. I think I need email updates.
Simonssalamanderr on September 7th, 2009 09:39 pm (UTC)
Totally know what you mean about emotionally reactions. Maybe because someone dying after saving their friends from hordes of giant robots is more emotionally intense than something in real life even though it's happening to someone who isn't real?

Strong emotions just don't seem to come up that often in my life (drama free yay).