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04 September 2010 @ 12:56 am
Machete is everything you hope it will be.
17 August 2010 @ 12:28 am
Just got back from Scott Pilgrim, which I think I liked?

One of the trailers before the movie was for a thriller about supernatural shit happening in a stalled elevator. The audience seemed pretty interested, there weren't a ton of silly comments like during the trailer for MISMATCHED COUPLE ROMANCE 7.

The credits start flashing and the words "From M. Nigh Shayamalan" appear. EVERYONE in the theatre groans and starts to laugh. it's crazy how little credibility the guy has left.
21 March 2010 @ 01:12 am
Oh God Electric Six
07 September 2009 @ 04:30 pm
So being mostly without internet for a week in no way made me more productive. I pretty much used the extra time to play video games.

That being said, it feels weird having a computer with no internet. I kept wanting to read something new or look something up and was unable to. It didn't feel like having a computer at all, more like a gaming console.

Still haven't got an acceptance letter from BU. There is one day left to register, and I am most likely screwed. I'm still glad I'm not going back to ACC though, the very idea causes irrational dread.
Feelin': hotwarm
Listenin' to: Meatloaf- Bat Out Of Hell (Live version)
06 August 2009 @ 01:53 pm
I think my main problems at present are totally physical in nature. I am far too sleep deprived and my life is essentially devoid of exercise. This makes me lazy and irritable, and prone to finding excuses not to do important things.

I just couldn't turn my brain off last night and ended up reading through 7 or so volumes of Trigun (finally finished it), an extremely long debate about agnosticism vs. atheism (on The1585), the Ebonmuse blog and the Magic website, among other things. Total information addiction. I need to find a way to fix this.

I had an energy drink today (after not sleeping at all last night) and felt like a god for about an hour and a half. I could think again! The difference really is incredible between me with energy and me without energy.

Even besides all that, the way I've been living lately is really terrible for my body. I need to take care of the damn thing until I can implant my consciousness into a distributed network of nanobots or whatever.

Anyway, in my energized state, I started thinking about something Rinku posted about a long, long time ago. It was the idea of music as an effective form of mind control. I think this is a pretty interesting idea. If you think about it, the purpose of music is essentially to create emotion in the listener- it simulates emotion. This is why music is so important in movies and such- you aren't actually as sad as the characters, or as pumped up, or whatever, but the music helps you feel that way.

So music is like simulated or artificial emotion. Strangely (or maybe not) I find I have stronger emotional responses to certain songs than to most events that actually happen in my life. As a result I have a way better memory for music than I do for actual events.

Is that a bad thing? It makes me think of Neuromancer, and the question of whether an emotion is diminished somehow by being caused "artificially." What even counts as a valid cause for an emotion? Does it matter if a feeling is caused by seeing the face of someone you love as opposed to some sort of weird drug or something? Interesting to think about.

Still haven't talked to my parents about changing schools this year... there never seems to be a good time to bring it up, especially with my mom's old friend staying here for the whole week. I only have a week or so left to make the change, and I haven't done enough research about what it takes to get a student loan and how to register for university courses.

I'm not too worried about not getting into some of the courses I want, since I want to take a bunch of stuff. At the same time I kind of wonder if I'm not giving Media a fair chance. I guess I just don't want to commit too early without trying everything out. I'm still ignorant about a heck of a lot of things.


It seems whenever I'm getting bogged down with my bass playing, it has something to do with the tone controls. I've been playing with the low frequencies boosted a lot, and it made everything not on the E string sound wussy and terrible. I don't know why it took me so long to figure out how to fix it.

I originally had it this way because turning the treble down disguises my sloppy playing a bit. I'm better than I was back then though, so I don't really need to do that anymore.

Can't mention music with Porcupine Tree, can I? There's a track from the new album online now. Like most PTree songs, this one keeps getting better each time I listen to it. Can't wait for the new album. http://porcupinetree.bandcamp.com/track/time-flies-edit

There's been a bunch of things I was meaning to review and talk about, but I don't really feel like it now, so just trust me when I say these things are good:

The band Rishloo;
The new Mars Volta Album, Octahedron;
Pattern Recognition by William Gibson;
House of Suns by Alistair Reynolds;
The Trigun Manga (although I have some quibbles with this one.);
a bunch of other stuff I've forgotten because I haven't updated this thing in like, a year.

I think my writing is even worse than usually. I'm really rambly today. Probably has something to do with me not writing anything lately.
Feelin': thoughtfulthoughtful
08 June 2009 @ 06:58 pm
Haha, a little over a month ago I posted this:

"Major project, due yesterday: I have not started it.
Major group project due in a week and a half: For some fucking reason I was made producer for this thing. Haven't started it. Find myself not caring.
News story due tomorrow: haven't started it, have no ideas, neither does my reporter.
Major audio project due in a week and a half: This I might get done."

My GPA this year was 3.8. No I don't know how I pulled that off.
14 April 2009 @ 01:21 am
It was nice feeling good for a change.

Something went horribly wrong this semester. My enthusiasm for Media Production waned pretty fast after Christmas break, and I've managed to do this to myself:

Major project, due yesterday: I have not started it.
Major group project due in a week and a half: For some fucking reason I was made producer for this thing. Haven't started it. Find myself not caring.
News story due tomorrow: haven't started it, have no ideas, neither does my reporter.
Major audio project due in a week and a half: This I might get done.

And now I can't sleep so I'm just uselessly laying in bed ranting on the internet. yay.
Feelin': FUCK
13 April 2009 @ 06:07 pm
Was going to do something productive today, read webcomics and went for a walk instead.
11 April 2009 @ 03:18 pm
06 April 2009 @ 03:18 pm
I'm conflicted about continuing with media production.

It's pretty late to be thinking about this. I've already invested a year in the program. It's very late to be applying to university or whatever.

The second year is reportedly a lot better than the first, and I won't have to do the stuff that I dislike the most.

(mostly reporting- I could be a good reporter I think, maybe an amazing one, but i hate setting up interviews and trying to get information from people. People are inefficient. Also, the kinds of things I'm interested in aren't the kinds of things that most reporters cover).

But I don't see myself being an editor, or an audio tech or anything like that. I don't think It's what I want to do with my life.

I'm almost certain that my parents will tell me to take the second year. I'll be able to get my certificate, for what it's worth. and I will have finished something. I have time in the future to try other things.

But if I already know this isn't what I want to do (is it too early to decide that?), why spend another year on it? Shouldn't I begin trying new things as soon as possible?
Feelin': confusedconfused
Listenin' to: TSO- Beethoven
06 April 2009 @ 03:00 pm
I've pretty much given up finding a workable system of "objective morality." I'm not convinced such a thing can even exist.

It seems to me that since morality describes some actions as "better" than others, it's inherently subjective, since you must ask "better for what?"

Since what is "better" for you depends on your values, and your values are subjective, it follows that morality is as well.
Feelin': awakeawake
Listenin' to: 18 Rabbit- Dilate
06 April 2009 @ 02:34 pm
Sometimes I think I must be manic-depressive or something. Once or twice a week, the haze lifts and I feel like a god among men. I just want to grab the whole world, rub it all over my body and snort it through a bendy straw.

That sounds really fucking weird, but there it is.

I want to make it a priority to experience more. You can learn a lot through the internet and things like that, but one of the reasons I've been unsuccesful in the art sense is that I don't have anything to say- the things that I find important have been said already.

The only way to remedy this is to find things out first hand rather than through someone else. Sure, maybe what I find out won't be new, but it will be new to me, and I'll be able to say it my way, rather than regurgitating the thoughts of others (no matter how much sense they make).

I can already feel my enthusiasm fading but...

I want to write music that changes lives through pure emotion, with lyrics that reveal untold truths.

I want to create paintings that give you the feeling you get when you realize that you can now do what you couldn't before. (I don't even paint)

I want to make the world's most delicious sandwich and share it with a group of geniuses who go on to invent cold fusion, or FTL travel, or Foglets.

Oh, and I want to do everything else too.
Feelin': thirstythirsty
12 March 2009 @ 02:13 am
Fuck insomnia.
Feelin': awakeawake
09 March 2009 @ 04:02 pm
I don't think I ever listened to The Bedlam In Goliath all the way through back when I first bought it, but luckily that mistake has been corrected. I threw it in my CD player on a whim and listened to it on the walk home from school.

I think it might be my favourite Mars Volta album, although maybe I'm just starting to get used to their sound. To be honest I don't listen to them very much, but the music is so interesting that I kept buying albums to see what they were up to.

One thing I like is that the album has very few fade out/fade in transitions. Everything sort of flows together without stopping. TMV don't really structure their songs in a traditional way, so it almost seems like one giant track with new ideas being continually added and removed.

I have a thing for concept albums I guess.

True to form, the lyrics in this album are totally indecipherable, but supposedly the story is about a Ouija Board called the Soothsayer that was owned by a member of the band (before he had it buried in an undisclosed locations). If you just imagine everything on this album being said by an evil Ouija board it works surprisingly well.


Whenever I'm walking home from the college, I start thinking about all the projects I want to work on. I get really excited about them, but as soon as I get home, all my enthusiasm disappears and all I want to do is sleep or play something mindless on the computer.

I think I need to start exercising and getting a good amount of sleep again. I was a happier person (and at least somewhat more productive) back when I was in TaeKwon-Do. There's just the problem of what/where/when I can do it, since the house is pretty small and other people are always around.

I've realized a few reasons why my projects fail to get off the ground. One is that I really have nothing I want to say, in particular, that seems very important. I want to say SOMETHING, and I think I have the means/skill to say something well. I just don't know what it is.

Any revelations I have about life or what have you generally come after a long period of thinking and discussion and related beliefs and it just seems pointless to try to distill it all into a single message.

I also tend to aim way high. I always want my projects to be big and earth shattering and awesome, but I don't have the experience in any art form. They just collapse on themselves. I just don't seem to have any motivation to work on something that isn't epic in some way.
Feelin': indifferentindifferent
Listenin' to: The Mars Volta- Conjugal Burns
01 March 2009 @ 09:30 pm
Eight hour band practice. Blisters now on three fingers.
26 February 2009 @ 01:52 pm
So my band, now named "This Man Needs Hydration" played at SUDS last night. I think the performance went pretty well. I fucked up on our last song, but I don't think anyone noticed.

We're at least good enough that we aren't boring people, so that's a start. The band's pretty good at working together when it comes to writing music as well, which has been a big help.

Had some problems with the rehearsal though. I don't know if it's because we took a week off when our guitarist was away, or what, but I developed massive blisters on my fingertips. These things are the size of your head. I wore a glove for the whole practice, and I mostly played with one finger during the actual show (if you can call 3 songs a show). Luckily I managed to ignore the pain enough to play decently.

Also I decided to change the battery for my bass' active electronics and ended up pulling the wire off the battery connection bit. It was only a matter of time until that happened, because that part's always been finnicky, but it was particularily bad timing. We ended up going to Ryan's to pick up his bass, which was even harder on my fingers.

Oh well, it all turned out in the end.

We have our big gig at Lady of the Lake next Friday and need a lot more material, so there are more practices on the way. I'm looking forward to it though.

I also can't wait to get my hands on Steven Wilson's solo album. I missed out on the horrendously expensive collector's edition, but the normal release is coming out soon. I can't stop listening to this song, it keeps growing on me.

Sometimes I wish we were playing weird experimental stuff instead of jazz/funk, but it should just be more incentive to write my own music. Solo career in my future?
Listenin' to: Steven Wilson- Harmony Korine
14 February 2009 @ 03:44 pm
A little while ago I was listening to music and a song from Persona 3 came on- I suddenly started to feel really sad. I think it's the first time I've ever missed a group of fictional characters, which just goes to show how well the game develops them.

I'm a little skeptical about being able to control your teammates in Persona 4. It might make them feel less like separate people. Luckily it gives you the option to have them be computer controlled as well. It will be interesting to see if I end up loving these characters as much as the last group.

One thing I thought Persona 3 could have done better was show you the impact of apathy syndrome. I mean, you see the victims out around the town, and you hear about it on the news, but no one you ever know gets it or is affected by it really. Persona 4's killer almost seems more dangerous, since he's grabbing your friends right from the start.


I went to shoot curling today and almost passed out at my camera. I was standing on the ice, and I think the temperature difference between my feet and the rest of my body caused some problems. I kept yawning, felt nauseous, and eventually started losing vision and had to sit down. I spent the rest of the mobile inside the truck doing graphics/audio, and I seem to be ok now. It was not a good feeling though.
07 February 2009 @ 07:18 pm
I finally beat Persona 3 FES. Although the last month of game-time started to drag, the ending of the game really made all the themes hit home.

I don't know if this was intentional or not, but the day before the last battle, none of my social links were around, and the city seemed totally empty. Without the social links, there's nothing meaningful to do during the day.

I also really liked the Nyx-Avatar battle. Through its weaker forms, it seems to be agreeing with the characters, but as soon as it switches to the last arcana, you know exactly what you're fighting against (in a philosophical sense).

The ending made me wish I had maxed more links out. I had a few that were very close. I don't think it's worth going through the whole game again to find out what happens to them, but maybe if I ever do the new game+.

I haven't played through "The Answer" yet, but I really want to find out about that butterfly robot, and why Aigis is beating on Akihiko in the opening video...
Feelin': contemplativecontemplative
Listenin' to: Burn My Dread
02 February 2009 @ 10:13 pm
Well today has been quite productive.

By my usual standards anyway.

There was no school today for a "professional building session" for the teachers, but I was hired by the school to film the guest speaker at it (by hired I mean an instructor asked who would do it and I raised my hand first). Turns out the speaker was really good, meaning the filming went by pretty fast, and that's 75 dollars in my pocket (once they actually give me the cheque).

Greg, one of our video instructors, also gave me the idea to do a news story on the presentation, since I've been unable to get interviews for my previous idea (and it's due tomorrow). So I got an excellent interview with the presenter and several teachers, and I just need to edit everything together tomorrow.

When I got home I fiddled around on bass for a while and managed to figure out a part for some lyrics I've had kicking around. I'll have to play with it for a bit longer to see if it will work or not, but it's a start.

As of now I have about 20 minutes of recorded material (material being half baked bass-line ideas), which is a lot more than I thought I did. Lots of it is repetition or variation of the same parts, but there could be as many as 10 potential songs in there.

One thing that is annoying is that I really have to boost the bass EQ to get a good sound with my USB converter thingy. Otherwise you can hear every tiny movement of my fingers, and it sounds really awful. I keep forgetting to do it though.

Finally, I also came up with a good name for one of the characters in my new OHR project (Oh god why did I start a new OHR project). I didn't work on it too much, but a few of the concepts I'll be using got fleshed out in my mind, so that's something.

It's a lot easier to plan this project since it takes place in a single, narrowly defined location as opposed to an entire, fleshed out country. It's still going to take a lot of work though.

Sadly, I didn't accomplish what I was supposed to this weekend, which was my radio contest project- I need to come up with something fast, but I'm still drawing a blank for most aspects of it.

Also, my family bought a new car today, so that's something as well.

Oh yeah, I'm also 20 as of Saturday.
Feelin': hopefulhopeful